I was just (two hours ago) knocked flying off my bike by some woman opening her landrover discovery door in a hurry, trying to get her kids to their music lessons at blackheath concert halls. The same woman has come soo close to what she finally acheived today twice before atthe same spot, and i've had serious words with her about it before, she obviusly did'nt listen. I could'nt handle her panic. She and her husband were crouding me something awfull, and fireing questions at me left right and centre do you need a doctor, do you want some tea, fuck off!, all i wanted to do was beat the living shit out of them, but without getting their insurance details i rode off so i did'nt I'm fed up with people who are so self absorbed that they run a milloin miles an hour without care for their, or others saftey. I 'm seem to be constantly fighting to keep from being dragged into that kind of lifestyle and i dealt wiht the situation far better than they did despite having my sholder slammed into the very edge of an opening car door and being flung into the oppisite lane of traffic (in fact i'm lucky not to have been run down). I guess i've conditioned myself to beable to handle pain, confrontations, and crashes. This would'nt have happened if this woman ran her life in a more orderly way, taking time to think about why she's so stressed or at least agnolege it and take moment to chill out. I have a few ways to get away from monotony and frustration. Obviously bmx but that has become such a part of everyday life it gets mixed up with lots of tenstion creating stuff. A day out taking photo's or riding my big bike or both. But the most anger quenching thing i've found is having a fire, outdoors if possible and sitting so close it dries your eyeballs watching the metamophosis of the mesmarizing reactions. Do it alone so you hav'nt gotta worry about nutters throwing in fireworks or kicking it into your face. Get a girl round?, that can be pretty stressfull though. Drawing is possibly the most theraputic and rewarding acivity. Well enough of that i do'nt like computer screens so i wo'nt spend too long doing this but one more thing. for those who spend too much time around bmx (i cant get enough of it personally) and bmx video's , i like thought provoking films every so often and here are a few i liked soo much that i've gone and bought them.

Naked Lunch was written by William Burroughs and made into a film by David Cronenberg, its crazy and has the guy who played robocop as the lead character. In fact any Cronenburg film is usually a good bet especially Videodrome.

Testuo, the iron man is a japanize black an white student film, industrial sound track, completly mad. The bit with the organ on the train platform being poked by the woman with a pencil i swear was taken directly from my dreams.

TheVanishing, not the shitty remake, the real 1998 George Sluitzer film. You will never forget this film, i saw it when i was 10 with my mum cos i was ill and could'nt sleep it went on untill 2 in the morning but we could'nt drag ourselfs away from it. The ending gave me nightmares for years and i still think it affects me. I'm not claustrophobic but...

There you go then that was a bit of a Joe Alderson moment that was'nt it(www.prettyshady.com buy his video looks like its gonna be pretty funny), never mind bmx is a small world, too small sometimes. Oh yeah and socializing with cokeheads is never a relaxing experience, do'nt do it.

Some bmx next time i promise and more street furnature, yawn ohh ahh fuck tits sphincter breasts, my arm kills!